I Remember.

I remember eating macaroni and cheese while coloring in coloring books.  I remember spending every free second of summer at the pool. I remember all of the homes. I remember all of the schools.  I remember packing.  Lots and lots of packing.  I remember dad picking me up for the weekend.  I remember eating sticks of butter.

I remember doctors, surgery, cops, and you.  I remember you the way I wish I always could.  I remember when you were my everything and no one could ever be bigger or better than you.  I remember when I learned the truth.  I remember when I finally figured out what the saying "ignorance is bliss" meant.  I remember a childhood that I don't remember.

I remember growing up at 6 years old.  I remember going to the movies for 14 years.  I remember being left alone for days while you were gone.  I don't remember where you went.  I remember not eating while I was with you.  Days without food... great parenting.

I remember the day I hated you with such intense passion I thought I would burst at the seams.  I remember the day I learned that my hatred fueled your fire.  I remember the day that I learned to forgive, but never forget.  I remember the day I said goodbye.  I remember what freedom finally felt like.